Dad's voice

Just got back from Christmas Eve services. I know every word to every Christmas carol, but I couldn't bring myself to sing ... no matter how much I tried. I heard my Dad's voice in every song. He used to sing "Joy to the World" and others in harmony.
I remember a red song book ... I remember the cover. It had a drawing of kids singing around a decorated light pole. It was used so much throughout the years ... Dad and I would sing from it all the time. It is what he used to teach me all those songs. He would play many of them on the organ ... the organ that sat in the parlor in our house in New York in the same room as the Christmas tree.
Maybe next year I will be able to sing. This year, it just couldn't bring myself to do it. I know Dad is singing the Christmas carols in heaven as he celebrates in heaven with Jesus this year.